I am going to be bringing this back to life. I find needing an outlet is a good and wonderful thing! Have something to say? Want to share it with the rest of us! Just let me know.....
I feel as if I have just had an aha moment. I recently had the pleasure of being surrounded by such a wonderful group of people are just like me except totally different. It's one thing to go through the motions of everyday life and feel like a freak. I mean it has never really bothered me before. I found that being surrounded by these wonderful people was the first time I have truly felt relaxed in such a long time, that I found myself perplexed in how to handle it. It took some getting used to.
While I just sat and watched most of the night I was drawn into the energy of everyone around me. Seeing all the different styles between the partners was interesting and somewhat educational for me. I got to see my first needle play scene and that gave me a whole new level of respect for those that can do it. I was able to watch wonderfully beautiful sensual top and I found that the energy they produced was like nothing I have ever experienced before.
So to all of you there....thanks for welcoming me. I felt like me. I felt normal. :)
I would also like to thank those of you that allowed me to test out various methods of torment/pleasure. I am still black and blue and I love it. I also found that there is a fine line between pain and a giggle if either are received in the right way. I found the whole experience like that of a thunderstorm. Lightening being the initial strike and the thunder being the lovely ripples of that pain radiating throughout the body. It is hard for me to explain it any other way besides that. An intense beautiful cleansing thunderstorm.
I really tried. I did. I can't make you like me and thats ok. I should have known better than to trust. Shame on me. I truly hate the outcome because not only have I lost several friends......I have lost a piece of me in the way that I see people. I will no longer be able to trust people. I should have known better.
I have truly reached my limit. My heart is utterly broken. To have one's trust shattered it a devastating thing....to those that still see the world as it could be I hope you never loose that.
A couple of things coming up for me. One I have a Warrior Dash coming up! I am really excited about it. I am going to tear it up! For those of you that don't know what that is......check it out.....
First off....obstacle course....second I get to play around in the mud on purpose with men and women. Yeah....Oh did I forget to mention....free beer and a Viking helmut at the end. I feel blessed to be surrounded by such inspiring people both physically and emotionally.
Second thing I am working on......on my little health kick I have set up several different goals along the way. One is a photo shoot. If you would call it that. I have always wanted some really snazzy pictures of myself. What better way to do that than to use some of my own corsets and other fineries...to help make it come to fruition. I know I want some really classis black and white, budoir pics and some vampy/trashy (to an extent)..... I got a really cool corset this weekend and I am excited about having my picture made in it.
One idea that has come to mind as well......um pictures of me with the theme of the Seven Deadly Sins.
I just have this totally wicked idea in my head......if I can find some really twisted clothes to wear in them.......that would be awesome. Ideas anyone??
Ok. I have to say that I am not known for my patience. When I do something I go all out. I just can't help it. Go big or go home that kind of thing. That being said when I decided to do the whole get in shape thing. Yes I know round is a shape, but RED can not be round. Red is spunky. Anywho. My whole determining factor on this journey was I saw all these people who looked freaking awesome. So naturally being the WOMAN that I am and the spunky little snot that I am I was like if they can do it I know I can because thats how I roll.
So in the midst of all this not only did I find my inner Rock Star jammin out I started a new business as well. I can't help but want to make other people find that inner happy with themselves and just being them! To finally have that feeling is really like a drug and you just want to GIVE it out. LOL.
So in that little moment of hot damn I am a ROCK STAR moment TEAM UNDEFINED was born. It is something so close to my heart. I have always been different from the norm and now I know its ok. So my group got that name for that reason!
I choose to be undefined because once you define yourself. You have set a limit on yourself. You are what you are and you can't be any other. So I forgo that definition or defining moment if you will.
I am hoping that this year will hold great things for my business. I am a firm believer that good things come to those who wait.
For anybody who reads my personal space (here) I will try not to do to much in regards to my business cause I have a business page for that www.teamundefined.com (shameless self promotion there)
But sometimes you just need to write it out.
You know. I am really not a confrontational kind of person. Honest I'm not. One thing I have noticed lately is that people seriously think they can say or do whatever it is they want and not worry about the consequences of those actions.
Here are a couple of questions for you?
1. What makes you so special that you can be so condesending?
2. Are you really so unhappy that you have spread that nasty mentality around to others?
3. Do you need step by step instructions on how you can bend over and kiss my (as my friend Havan would say) Assets?
I am done dealing with closed minded hating people. Get a new hobby....Get a life....Get over your sorry excuse of exsistance you call your life....and do something productive.
I know they say you can't fix stupid...not even with duct tape or even a baseball bat for that matter....but that doesn't mean it won't still amuse me to no end. Ready to play?